Samantha484

Damn... I've already been in high school for two weeks and I forgot to tell you that my application was even accepted!

It's been crazy two weeks. I got so many new friends. And they even have a no bullying policy! I haven felt this happy for a while. ))
Everything's so new and exciting. The music teach is totally nuts but she is great too!

But enough about me. How are you doing?
Tell me down in the comments. Also feel free to ask questions if you have them. 

So, I'm closing requests.

But don't worry if you haven't gotten your own yet. I'm going to finish them all.

People who's requests I'm currently working on:






 

There are some people who are getting too fake here on dA.
They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get.
So let's see who will actually re-post this.
This is a test to see who's paying attention.
This is a test to see how many people in my friend list actually pay attention.
Copy and re-post in your own bulletin Let's see who the true friends are...
Re-post this if you are a friend... Don't reply...
Just copy and paste this in a new journal as "Fake Friends." If you are my friend.

So I wanted to give a try on doing some requests because few of my friends tend to ask a lot of things from me. So here we go!

But remember that I don't know how to draw EVERYTHING. So if you ask me to draw for example, some character that I don't know or maybe your OC I might need some reference pictures. ^^



Requests that I will accept:

- Fan art (from books, movies & TV, manga/anime etc.)
- OC's
- Small comics
- And of course all OTP's are welcome 



Requests I will NOT draw:

- Extremely gory pictures (I mean EXTREMELY bloody and scary things)
- 18+ content


And remember to tell me how you want me to make your request (digital or traditional art/sketch, line art or colored) It will help a lot
Thanks!

Okay, because I don't think all of you wan't to hear my life story I'll give you the short explanation.

Some time ago I stopped actively updating my deviantart and little after I stopped coming here all along. And some of you wanted to know the reason for it. So if you're not interested you don't have to read this.
No i wasn't hit by a car or kidnapped. Real life just made itself known...

All the years (the last nine years) of built up stress caused by bullying, work, school, loneliness and depression came crashing down on me all at once. I tried to stuff it all inside me and I became distant to other people and stopped going out to the city only leaving home for school.

I don't know which was worse going to school or staying home. At school I would be beat up on the PE class until there were bruises and cuts on my body, I would be shouted at and people would call me by offensive names. 
At home I would have mental breakdowns and nightmares and sleepless nights that developed into insomnia. I started getting paranoid and was afraid to actually go to school sometimes. 

My family tried to help me the best they could. At first (on my grades from 1 to 5) mom tried to contact everyone she could to get the bullying to stop. This list included several different teachers, the school psychiatrist, the headmaster, the parents of the bullies, the parent council etc... Nobody helped.
Every call of help was turned away with "We're sorry we can't be of help" and "that is a part of teenage life". So we stopped trying.

Mom started taking care of me. I started calling her in the middle of school days and she would take time to listen to me or at least call back if she couldn't. And after school she would always ask me how my day was. 

At seventh grade things got better, I went to a different class than my bullies, I got actual friends, I even started spending more time with my sister. 
I got the most amazing home class teacher and in class all the other pupils would ignore me and refused to talk to me. That was fine by me. I didn't talk to the and the left me alone.

Then it started again at the 8th grade(This is when I stopped updating my social status on the internet). The beatings and name calling started again and finally on the 9th grade it crushed me like a ton of bricks and everything came back bit by bit, the nightmares, insomnia, paranoia. Everything.
On top of that I had to worry about graduation and getting to high school.

I started getting sick really often, and my home class teacher was getting worried for me. Sometimes he would send me home in the middle of a school day because I looked so pale and sickly.
Then one night after a practically stressful day, I got home and tried to get some rest. But in the middle of the night I had a sort of a seizure. I had crawled to my parents room where mom had waken from all the noise I had made. She was the one to hold me until the whole thing was over. After that started taking homeopathic medication, my eating habits became quite irregular and experienced some problems with the coordination of my body.

I did not tell these things to my friends so they wouldn't worry about it. 

And after all this, I finally graduated. My grades were great. I got a stipend. I made it to high school. It was finally over.

After graduation I started to slowly recover.


Nowadays I don't need medication. I have friends that call me from time to time and even come for a visit or take me out with them. My eating habits are becoming normal again. I have started going out again.

Yes I still suffer from insomnia and a slight distrust for certain kind of people. But who the fuck cares?! I certainly don't!
I made it alive from this stupid shit storm that is my life. 

I know there are only a few people that will read this and I don't blame you if you are not one of them. This is something I have posted here on my free will and if you are reading it then I thank you for doing so.

Otherwise I wouldn't give two shits about this account but there are few people here that are actually dear to me. So now for them I'm going to start anew.




Saito(the best friend I could ask for) and Jansku(my lovely cute fluffy little sister), I know you two adorable little shits are reading this and you should know I'm crying right now. I wrote this for you two. Please don't ever change.